I was just at the movies with someone. And I was curled up all the way on the other side of my seat, not looking at them through the whole movie. I couldn't even see him in my peripheral vision. And something starting happened in the movie, and he said "what the hell." I hadn't been paying attention to him for so long that i forgot where I was, who I was with. When he said that, i legitimately thought it was you for a split second. I thought it was your voice, I thought I was sitting beside you. Until reality came crashing back to me. This happened a couple other times throughout the movie. I'd tune him out, completely blocking him from sight and mind. And when I'd turn my head slightly and see someone sitting next to me, I'd think it was you for an instant. I honest to God didn't think twice about it being you, so positive for that split second. Because you were so familiar to me. You are so familiar to me.

Four for four and I fucking hate it. Why is this happening

If I ever told you I had a dream about you while we were dating, I lied. Or maybe I just don't remember having one. But for some reason, for the past 3 nights in a row, you've done nothing but haunt my subconscious. Why? Why now? Why, when I though I was getting over you? I thought I was fine. I thought I had everything under control and I thought I was truly happy. Why is this happening? I don't want to be not okay any more. I'm sick of feeling sick. I just want to go back to hating you, and not caring about anything that you do. Why am I feeling this way when you're clearly completely over it? I can't do this. I don't understand.

And suddenly I'm fine. I'm over it. I'm truly happy. Life is beautiful again.

I hate it when you have the best dream ever but you know it'll never come true. I came out of the school at the end of the day to go to my car. And you were sitting in the front in the cobalt. And you blasted I Want You Back by nsync and got out car and then you asked me to prom. In front of everyone. I was bawling out of pure joy. I've never wanted a dream to be reality so much in my entire life.

You know you can't give me what I need
And even though you mean so much to me,
I can't wait through everything
Is this really happening?
I swear I'll never be happy again
And don't you dare say we can just be friends
I'm not some girl that you can sway
We knew it'd happen eventually



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