FUCKING YES.
BLINK 182 JUST GOT BACK TOGETHER!

I've realized that I can't stand when people don't like me. For as lighthearted and uncaring that I seem to be, I figured out that I actually care a whole hell of a lot when someone just doesn't accept me. But it's not really that, because of course everyone has someone against them. It's more when that person just doesn't even give me a chance before they decide that no matter what I do, they're never going to change their mind about me. I can't stand it. And now I feel insecure, and I'm probably going to feel bad all night. It's a real killjoy, you know?

Don't you love those days that you have a perfect shuffle? I've been on the same shuffle for the past two days, because it's so good and I'm afraid to change it. So I'm going to go back through it and list it. Mainly so I can make a playlist out of it later, but also so you can see what I consider good music. =]

1. Bleeding Heart - Acceptance
2. New Skeptic - The Fold
3. Sending Postcards From A Plane Crash - Fall Out Boy
4. Losing You - Busted
5. Sweat the Battle Before the Battle Sweats You - Cute Is What We Aim For
6. Red Stars - The Birthday Massacre
7. Ironic - Alanis Morissette
*8. Never Give Up on the Good Times - Spice Girls
*9. Song For Dad - Keith Urban
*10. That '70s Song - The Cab
*11. Go Go Go - The 88
*12. The Pursuit of Happiness: The 2nd Movement - This Providence
*13. Resting or Reloading - Save It For Sunrise
*14. My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion
*15. One Step Closer - Linkin Park
*15. My Alien - Simple Plan
*16. She Had The World - Panic At The Disco
*17. Last Mistake - Stillframe Sky
18. Matter of Time - Cartel
*19. I Don't Care (ft. Clinton Sparks & Seth Green) *Demo/snippet* - Citizens FOB Mixtape
20. What About Now - Daughtry
21. The Good Left Undone - Rise Against
22. Let Go (Frou Frou Cover) - Boys Like Girls
23. Hazy Eyes - Fightstar
24. Madeline - Hanson
25. What's This? - The Nightmare Before Christmas
26. Easier To Be - Lifehouse
27. Life After Death and Taxes - Relient K
28. Concrete Angel - Martina McBride


And that's all so far. I'll keep updating this for as long as I keep this playlist. Those with *'s were skipped. Not because they aren't good, but I probably just wasn't in the mood for them at the moment.

Do you know how much can change in four years? You don't just have time for that stereotypical "180". No, four years is enough time to turn that 180, realize that you're heading in the wrong direction, and turn another 180 so you're back where you started from. In fact, I think that after four years, everyone stays in the same place. From those nerve wracking days of the summer right before high school, to the nerve wracking days of the summer right after, you reflect and you realize that you're in exactly the same spot that you started in. Leaving middle school is a huge deal. We are all excited to finally become "mature", to undergo that transition that we believe will give us the ultimate enlightenment. During the next four years, we change, as we expected. But what we change into is not always anticipated. If we have any chance of survival in this world, and perhaps even subconsciously, we take that change and we change back. Now, we only realize this in the last few days of our right to childhood that is high school. And I'm not talking that last week of school. No, I mean that last week of summer. That very last chance we're given to jump on the train, and if we have the smallest chance of making it, we clear it. The time space for that jump is so limited that a lot have failed to notice its existence. But those who do, I won't say will go far, but will be ok. And once we realize that we've just gone in a huge, dramatic, emotionally draining circle, it's enough to make anyone want to laugh and give up on the spot. We did all of that for nothing, right? We're right back where we started. All that hype for nothing. But that's wrong. We may not have much to show on the outside, but we remember that circle. We remember the 180, and then the second 180. And it's that memory that counts. That memory is the transformation we've looked forward to since we started picking out our own clothes. And you can try to tell that to the kids who are about to enter the circle, the ones who think it's the greatest thing ever to finally be able to call yourself a freshman in high school, but they won't get it. They have to experience it themselves. But once you gain this knowledge, you won't forget it. Once you realize that virtually nothing has happened at all, that's when you can finally start to make something happen.